Now that you're gone, I can't escape. I used to use my fantasies to get me through the day, But I can't count on illusions to get me through the night. But I'm finding myself clinging to echoes of you.
I have a habit of holding on when I know it's not worth it, Of relying on those who didn't earn it, I can take a lot, though my pain tolerance is low. Wouldn't have begun this had I known, I was lost in you, now I'm lost in myself. Don't know who I am, how can I be helped? I reach out to find something to hold onto, But it's an illusion, an echo of you.
And the rain hits the window pane What is left for me to gain? Can I really expect to get what I desire? What would you have me do? I don't know what to say and I can't run to you. Obliviously you set my heart on fire, Though the rain is here to stay Until I fall from this wire. I'm sitting here alone and finally feeling a little okay, Because I know that today I just can't deal with the pain. So I avoid you and smile but can't help but wonder Do you miss me at all, did you see me slip under?